Pride, Sobriety and the Power of Friends.
Pride, Sobriety and the Power of Friends.
UPDATE: June, 2015
Because of the work I put into the Rainbow Clinic, NetCAD has nominated for an award. I was selected, and am to represent BC and Yukon at the Honouring Our Lifeblood even in Ottawa! I feel very honoured :)
UPDATE: April 27th, 2015
I went back to NetCAD today to do my usual donation, my 13th donation to be exact. While I was there, I was informed that donors have continued to come in because of seeing the Rainbow Donor Clinic in the media, and that “everyone has been very lovely.” Several people have since returned for their 2nd donations, which is great to hear. The community has been engaged.
My Grindr profile continues to say “I donate blood at Canadian Blood Services’ research lab, NetCAD. Ask me more.” This continues to be polarizing. As I was sitting in the clinic today, someone was messaging me about the discrimination based on orientation, that CBS must “do some grovelling” and that the community must defend itself. He goes on to say that my “passivity is the death knell for gay culture.” – As you can see, some people still choose to sit in anger and frustration… others have shifted perspectives, made acknowledgements and started to do what they can while waiting. You cannot win them all. Viewing this campaign as “passive” is blatant ignorance. This, my friends, is “action.”
Coincidentally, as I was waiting to donate at the clinic, a Thank You letter arrived for me. No need to mail it to me, I was right there! Perfect timing. This letter comes from the CEO of Canadian Blood Services, Graham Sher, and the Chief Medical & Scientific Officer, Dana Divine. This is what it says:
To me, this Donor Clinic was, and continues to be, a success. I am super grateful for the support and the response. If you have not yet done so, book an appointment to donate at NetCAD. It all starts with research and development.
Why a Rainbow Blood Donor Clinic? The common question that people keep asking me. I hope that here I will be able to clarify my reasons and articulate my intent. Each journalist I have spoken with has reduced my story to a meagre selection of quotes, scattering them amongst his or her article or broadcast. I do not think anyone has heard, thoroughly, what it is that has driven me to initiate yesterday’s event. Here we go:
Why Me? My story is like many. I went to donate, I didn’t pass the questionnaire, and I was asked to leave. I was not given any supportive information or provided other options; it was a feeling of shame and rejection. That was 12 years ago. Since then I have written articles, participated in focus groups in Ottawa prior to the policy change and have deeply researched this policy within Canada but also in an international context. This Rainbow Clinic is another stop on my journey towards donating blood for transfusion.
My involvement will not end here. In discussions with many CBS staff yesterday, it became clear to me that I am now part of the history of the MSM Policy and will probably be part of the future of the MSM Policy. Changes do not happen over night, especially on a national level, when lives are at stake.
Responsibility must be taken by the MSM community. Something that I have begun to acknowledge is that over 50% of new HIV cases are within the gay community. This is a very disproportionate number… Check out this article by Tristin Hopper for more details. Someone once said to me, “You can’t bitch about that which you allow to happen,” and I believe that it holds true in this case. Of course, I do not blame the community for the health disaster of the 80s; the history is beside the point. I am talking about today and moving forward. The gay community must take steps to mitigate the high incidence of HIV. What is being done on OUR side of the fence to ensure that HIV doesn’t spread further? I believe that we, as a community in a high risk group, have a duty to ensure, as best we can, that our blood remains free from viruses. We cannot complain about the policy but disregard the reason why.
How did the Rainbow Clinic turn out? The day was a huge success!! NetCAD hit record numbers of donations. We had some people come with the sole intent to voice opinions and to ask questions, which is awesome! Others came in to learn and to show support or learn their blood types… donating isn’t for everyone, of course. The whole day was busy and we had many engagements with CBS staff and NetCAD researchers. People were walking in off the street to donate as well, and we had quite a line up at one point. The food provided was delicious and, overall, it was a pleasure to spend the day at the clinic. Surely many of us have a tender arm, but it is worth it!
It has been an incredible journey. It is amazing to me that out of my fleeting idea, all of this has unfolded. What if I never sent that original email to NetCAD proposing this collaboration? Let me tell you, I am so glad that I did. Being an active participant in something so unique and momentous will forever remain part of me. I encourage you to take a stab at your fleeting thoughts, go for them, propose them… you never know how they will be received or where they may go.
I have to say, that Canadian Blood Services has been tremendously supportive of this venture. Engaging the LGBTQ community was as important to them as it was to me; our interests aligned and we ended up organizing this incredible event. Perspectives were changed, opinions were changed, information has been gained, and more netCAD donors have been gained. This is great stuff!
Am I part of the problem?? Really!? I am surprised by some of the comments and opinions that have been thrust my way since this started rolling out. Members of the gay community have been messaging me with some rather bold comments, suggesting that I am part of the problem and perpetuating homophobia and discrimination. I imagine that this looks like I am “in bed with the enemy” because many folks are not fans of CBS. The fact of the matter is, at least I am engaging and trying to do something. Some people simply want to be angry or stir the pot; they get a sick kick from hoarding resentments. To those people: “Carry on, for it will have no impact on me. I know where my intent is, where my heart is, and where my courage is.”
Here is a list of Media links, in the order in which they hit the public… This Rainbow Blood Clinic has blown the lid off of Canadian media.
January 19th – Vancouver Xtra. “Deferred from giving blood, gay men urged to donate to research”
January 23rd – Yahoo News. “Vancouver clinic offers sexually active gay men a way to join the blood donor system”
January 27th – 24Hrs Vancouver. “Vancouver clinic encourages gay men to donate blood”
February 2nd – The Globe and Mail. “Vancouver clinic looks to recruit sexually active gay men for blood donations”
February 2nd – Global News. “Rainbow clinic encourages gay men to give blood”
February 3rd – ICI Radio-Canada. “Vancouver: la Societe canadienne du sang accepte les dons d’hommes gais aux fins de recherche”
February 3rd – Straight.com. “Gay men can donate blood for research at Rainbow Clinic”
February 3rd – CBC News BC. “Canadian Blood Services sets up ‘rainbow clinic’ to take donations from gay men”
February 3rd – CBC Radio. “Canadian Blood Services appeals to gay men”
February 3rd – Drex Live. “Soundcloud Clip: Drex Live Tuesday Feb 3 Hour 1 – 26 mins in”
February 4th – CBC Radio. “A 180 on blood donation policy”
February 4th – Huffington Post. “Canadian Blood Services sets up ‘rainbow clinic’ to take donations from gay men”
February 4th – CBC News. “CBC News Vancouver at 6 – 27minutes in”
February 8th – CBC Radio’s “The 180” – “A 180 on blood donation policy”
April 7th – Outlook TV – “Outlook Channel on Youtube – 12 minutes in”
I am feeling impulsed to write. I have been triggered a few times over some weeks, so now its time to take the shot. Thank god for blogs… I can spit out my thoughts and have the eyes of curious other’s read them. My inner voice can be experienced in and through the reader.
Pride week has ended… and I am incredibly happy to have experienced it. I am happy because this past Sunday 650,000 people can into the downtown core of Vancouver. They came to a Gay Pride Parade and Celebrations that has been happening annually for 65 years… They came to Celebrate. They came to Celebrate Diversity, Liberty, Happiness, Life, etc. Pride has become so much more than a brave Expression of Gay Rights. It is a way for us to recognize the differences among us and to Celebrate them. What a Gift. I do not know of another day where there is so much Joy, Christmas included.
650,000 people! I am curious to know the stats here. What were the arrests? At what rate did people fight? Were there many tears, beyond the tears of Joy? This past Sunday, I rode a float through the thousands of people, and my heart was filled to the brim with Joy and Happiness. People were there to support, express, and just have Fun! The sun was out. The smiles were on.
I am a gay man, and I am Proud of it. I have come through my own inner turmoil and have grasped the very essence of who I am and I hold that essence, chin up, with Pride. I am gay, and I fucking love it. I am incredibly moved by the contrasting experiences of my compatriots living in Russia, Ecuador, Nigeria, etc. Any gay person who tells me that they “don’t do Pride” or who scoff at the occasion need a swift kick in the rump. Show some Respect. Take a look through the lens of a different perspective… there is another way to view this colourful day.
A friend voiced his distaste for Pride to me tonight and it clearly highlighted this intense feeling of frustration and sadness inside me. I learned that it is the negative attributes of Pride that cause this friend to feel this negative way. It is in the chaos, the drugs, and the sex-driven shenanigans that this particular person finds distaste. Fair. That shit makes anything distasteful. Same can be said for Halloween, New Years, and any other major party night. The darkness always shows its ugly face.
Darkness aside… this colourful day should bloody well be Respected. And yes, I said, “should.” I grew up in a country where I was allowed to be gay, even though my upbringing and socialization told me otherwise. I can only imagine the incessant difficulty involved with living as a homosexual in any of the countries that incriminate and even kill for it. We have Rights, and most of them come from our forefathers taking marches down the streets asking for them. Today, we carry the Tradition, with incredible Strength, with 650,000 Supporters. Look how far we have come.
I Celebrated this Pride for the souls around the world who couldn’t even Dream of the Gift that we as Canadians have been given. I Love who I Love, and they cannot love who they love. I kiss who I want to kiss… and I do not have to fear a deadly retribution.
My eyes wandered the crowds this weekend, and I saw so much Life. So much Light. I cannot simply sit here and leave this feeling unexpressed.
Everyone is entitled to his or her opinions…naturally, and here is mine: any homosexual who scoffs and undermines this powerful day of LGBTQ Pride needs a perspective adjustment. If history played out differently, it could have been you hanged, stoned, humiliated, or imprisoned. Sure we face hardships as gay men, lesbian women, transgendered people, transexuals, queers, two-spirited individuals, bisexuals, etc… and I feel it is our Duty to stand up together and show the world that we are simply humans wishing to express Love. It’s not about how we have sex. It’s about being True to ourselves. It’s about Love.
Why a Rainbow? Well… some say each colour represents a different sexual identity… and although this may be true, I see it differently. Let me ask you a question. How do you feel when you look into the sky and see a Rainbow? The rain is clearing, and the light of the sun is pouring through the clouds. Rainbows are a prime example of everything that is tiful on this planet… and these Celebrations are the same. Few, if any, people look into the sky and say “Ewww, that rainbow is ugly… it makes me sick…” No, it is awesome. It inspires awe. So can we.
No shut up and show a little respect for our brother and sisters who are suffering